Have you ever played The Sims? I had a copy back in high school that I would play on my Dad's computer. Of course I was awful at it. See, in The Sims, you're suppose to control your person, make sure he eats, bathes, sleeps, uses the toilet, gets to work, etc. See, I could never get my person to do all that stuff quick enough. When that happens, said person gets dirty, hungry, depressed, loses his job and dies. It got even worse when I tried to control more than one character at a time. It was a frustrating game that I played over & over.
Since my mom left a week and a half ago, I kind of feel like I'm playing a real life game of The Sims minus the whole dirty/depressed/dying part, because I don't think it'll get that bad. But it does seem like my to do list piles up faster than I can get things done. I'm talking about simple things. As soon as I sit to feel Bryson, Sariah needs a snack, I need to pee, etc. I feel like I'm doing my best to keep up with just the basics, never mind the big things like dishes or whatever (thank goodness for Doug!)
Then of course, last week I could feel myself catching a cold, which got worse and worse. It was pretty awful today, and thankfully Doug stayed home so I could catch up on sleep. New mothers shouldn't be allowed to get sick, that's all I've got to say.
Also, it seems that my kids are all doomed to develop reflux around their 3rd week of life. Sariah had it, and Bryson started developing it last week. We were using gas drops anyways because he was having a hard time burping and tooting, but they stopped working so well, so we graduated to gripe water, which helped for maybe a day or two. Finally I broke down and emailed our doctor for a prescription of the same drug we used for Sariah. He's had it 3 times so far & it seems to be helping (knock on wood.) He's stopped spitting up and pulling off during feedings, and he's finally sleeping on his back again, something he was having a hard time doing last week because of the reflux. Hopefully this means we'll get more sleep, since he really hasn't slept longer than 2.5-3 hrs between feedings, which was wearing on my sanity.
So that's a quick update on us. Hopefully things start getting better now. It has been a lonely week for me, even though I haven't really been alone. I was going to post some new pictures of the kids, but I looked on the camera, and there are no new pictures. I guess I'll have to take some soon, I'll put it on the list...
7 comments:
hang in there...it's really survival until they start sleeping thru the night, the priority is keeping everyone alive for the first couple months then you can move onto luxuries like laundry that was folded after it was washed, non-disposable plates & cups, etc.
hugs!! give both your babies a kiss from me!
=0)jess
Never heard of "The Siims," but I know what it feels like. Fortunately, new Moms generally survive--it just feels like an impossibility those first couple of months. Hang in there--we're all rooting for you.
You can do it! I felt the same way when my mom left. I've just started to feel back to my old self, and I think I'm finally getting used to this whole 2 kids thing :) Even then... I've still got 2 loads of laundry from Monday that need to be folded, a counter top full of dishes to be washed, and we've been doing leftovers since Monday :D
Hope the reflux goes away - or becomes manageable. Good luck!
Isn't in amazing how having two kids versus just one makes things more than two times as hard? Don't beat yourself up for not staying on top of everything. As long as everyone comes out alive at the other end, I say mission accomplished!
I agree with Hilary. Just sleep and keep everyone alive. That is SUCCESS! :)
It's hard slogging through those first few months of that new baby fog. If I were there, I'd take you out to lunch so you can remember you're a person, not a milk-cow. :) Good luck with it all. I hope you get some sleep and get to feel more like yourself soon.
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